I feel like most people who drink and/or do drugs have to decide early on how large a role they'll allow partying in their lives with the agreement that if they can't control how important becomes, they need to take measures to quit. I'm constantly checking myself to make sure weed never becomes too important again, let alone lead to drinking or doing any other drugs.
I never crave cigarettes anymore (whenever I smell them I'm disgusted and shocked that I was ever a smoker). I'm not sure I smoked as much as you (13 years, 1/2 a pack a day at the most) though. I very rarely crave booze. Actually, it's only when I'm around other people who are drinking. On one level, it's cool to be the only sober person at a party, because you're the most in control of your brain and therefore it's really easy to outwit others and/or entertain others. But on another level, I feel left out. It's not that I want to be drunk, I really don't miss that feeling and vastly prefer just being stoned. I just like being on the same wavelength as my friends, as corny as that sounds.
Hey that's awesome that you've been able to save some money man. Can relate- in the good old bad old days I'd get paid on Friday and be broke by Monday. Am currently working on saving money myself. Going camping over the weekend but feel like I need an actual vacation soon. Life has been nuts these last few months.
I thought they'd had drugs like that for awhile. I remember people in rehab talking about something like that which would block the effects of alcohol and another one that actually would make you puke if you had a single drink. I'm sure that type of thing is advancing all the time though.