Yeah it's true, I don't really want to get into specifics. Which adds a bit of extra frustration in some ways tbh, cus then I wouldnt have to tread carefully when talking about this stuff. But it's probably for the best right now.
Weed has definitely helped me in terms of sorting through my emotions and helping with self-reflection. But at the same time I can kinda end up feeling a bit too fried if i maintain that for too long. (I'm kind of edging into that right now tbh, I'll probably give it a break once I run out of what I've currently got). So I dont want to have to rely on it all the time as a crutch or anything. I recently became curious about micro-dosing, apparently gaining the psychological benefits without the "tripping balls" part of acid. I have no friggin clue how to get acid though, so doubt i'll ever get a chance to try that, haha.
I definitely feel ya on what youve found talking to your friends. the state of the world right now is really not doing any of us any psychological favors.