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I'm ready for ridicule and being made fun of but I need to vent somewhere

Posted by DanSaint <iframe src='https://mb.boardhost.com/TheDeuce/info/user=DanSaint' width='330' height='300' border=0 style='border:none;'> on November 24, 2025, 19:35:28

so I'm ready for it.

The last couple days have not been real good for me...at least in a mental headspace. It started on Saturday night when I heard from an old friend that an ex of mine was found OD'ed a few weeks ago out in Nevada. Although not dead, she's pretty much a vegetable now. It brought back a ton of memories about our time together and especially how it ended. Me not wanting to move out there because I had just started a new job (this was around 2015, she was 26). And for years I had put it behind me. I was fine. This, also, happened to be the last real relationship I have been in. I've dated a few people since but it's been more of "just hanging out and having fun" but no real romance or connection.

Although I shouldn't feel guilty...I do. When I was with her, she wasn't having these issues. She liked to smoke pot and take edibles but it was never anything harder than that. All day at work, any song I heard, immediate "nostalgia" and not always good. Because it hurt so damn bad.

I do know this will pass and I'll be fine in a few days...but this absolutely sucks and it took me a few days to fully process what I wanted to say. I hadn't spoken to her since our last night together before she left. Not even a text or even facebook friend. It was like she fell off the earth.

Thanks for listening

Really sorry to hear that. But sounds like you are processing it healthily, and that's good.*

Posted by JFG <iframe src='https://mb.boardhost.com/TheDeuce/info/user=JFG' width='330' height='300' border=0 style='border:none;'> on November 25, 2025, 8:20:00, in reply to "I'm ready for ridicule and being made fun of but I need to vent somewhere "

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When you care, you feel. I can only echo what others have stated here

Posted by TarheelIllini <iframe src='https://mb.boardhost.com/TheDeuce/info/user=TarheelIllini' width='330' height='300' border=0 style='border:none;'> on November 25, 2025, 7:02:46, in reply to "I'm ready for ridicule and being made fun of but I need to vent somewhere "

We all grow, some in positive ways (you) and others in non positive ways. Recall the good times with her and be happy with your life choices and path. We ultimately can only choose our own path, not choose another’s for them

Recrudescence

Sorry to hear that buddy. Good luck.*

Posted by ATL <iframe src='https://mb.boardhost.com/TheDeuce/info/user=ATL' width='330' height='300' border=0 style='border:none;'> on November 25, 2025, 5:59:20, in reply to "I'm ready for ridicule and being made fun of but I need to vent somewhere "

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“We are old and tired and just want to be taken care of.” - Republican voter, Dec. 2024.

It seems like it hurts because you care, and you probably care because

Posted by memyselfandillini <iframe src='https://mb.boardhost.com/TheDeuce/info/user=memyselfandillini' width='330' height='300' border=0 style='border:none;'> on November 24, 2025, 23:35:45, in reply to "I'm ready for ridicule and being made fun of but I need to vent somewhere "

she was a meaningful part of your life and you are a thoughtful person.

Good that you can process it. No reason for ridicule.

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Ugh. With all that, I think it would be weirder if you DIDN'T have these feelings

Posted by KingTalkyTiki <iframe src='https://mb.boardhost.com/TheDeuce/info/user=KingTalkyTiki' width='330' height='300' border=0 style='border:none;'> on November 24, 2025, 20:07:04, in reply to "I'm ready for ridicule and being made fun of but I need to vent somewhere "

You made the right choice for you at the time. That's all you can do.

What happened to her really sucks, and all your feelings are legit, but hopefully any guilt passes quickly . You have to take care of yourself before you can take care of anyone else..and at the time you did what you had to do for you. The road she took from there wasn't on you.

"You must own the honor of being the whitest, military vet, fat, multiple state property owner but most of all the one who hates their own country the most in our country."

Oh and anyone that would ridicule you for this is a piece of shit.*

Posted by KingTalkyTiki <iframe src='https://mb.boardhost.com/TheDeuce/info/user=KingTalkyTiki' width='330' height='300' border=0 style='border:none;'> on November 24, 2025, 20:09:03, in reply to "Ugh. With all that, I think it would be weirder if you DIDN'T have these feelings"

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"You must own the honor of being the whitest, military vet, fat, multiple state property owner but most of all the one who hates their own country the most in our country."

i know...i was just bracing myself for it. and thanks for the words

Posted by DanSaint <iframe src='https://mb.boardhost.com/TheDeuce/info/user=DanSaint' width='330' height='300' border=0 style='border:none;'> on November 24, 2025, 20:10:45, in reply to "Oh and anyone that would ridicule you for this is a piece of shit.*"

I know your right and I'll eventually get there in my headspace.

i'm just glad this is the current me and not the one from way back (you remember that POS). No telling what I would have done

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Dude the changes you've made are nothing short of incredible

Posted by KingTalkyTiki <iframe src='https://mb.boardhost.com/TheDeuce/info/user=KingTalkyTiki' width='330' height='300' border=0 style='border:none;'> on November 24, 2025, 20:51:55, in reply to "i know...i was just bracing myself for it. and thanks for the words"

You should be damn proud of who you you've become. I think most of us have had phases we ain't too proud of. It happened. All you can do is own it, and try to be a better man in this moment and going forward...and you've done all that and then some.

"You must own the honor of being the whitest, military vet, fat, multiple state property owner but most of all the one who hates their own country the most in our country."

That sucks. Good luck Saint*

Posted by jjlocke923 <iframe src='https://mb.boardhost.com/TheDeuce/info/user=jjlocke923' width='330' height='300' border=0 style='border:none;'> on November 24, 2025, 20:01:35, in reply to "I'm ready for ridicule and being made fun of but I need to vent somewhere "

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Proud Winner of the 2024 Deuce ROY Award

thanks man. *

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