Why do you think you should have had a kid earlier in life? At any rate, your comments re: parenthood are pretty consistent with what I've heard from friends with kids. One of them put it like this: "98% of the time, it's exhausting and somewhat frustrating but that other 2% is so good that it more than makes up for that other 98%". In other words, people with kids are ####ing crazy. Seriously though, hold onto the good stuff and hang in there!