And to be fair, I can fall into addictive patterns with weed that are similar to the patterns I had with alcohol, and I have to be a bit vigilant to prevent that by taking regular breaks, varying my consumption patterns and all that. Falling into that pattern doesnt have close to the same negative consequences that alcohol had on me by any means (mostly it's positive), but it can definitely still make me feel like I lack the discipline for self control at times.
My hangovers started to get bad in my mid 20s. never was one for throwing up (though that was usually because i got good at sensing when one more drink would push me over the vomit line and stopping just short of it), I'd mainly get headaches and low energy, and depressive anxious pessimistic moods that could only be alleviated by drinking again. I suspect that if i went and got totally hammered now (turning 32 next month, I quit drinking regularly when I was 27) I'd have the worst hangovers ever, since over the last few years when ive had just 1 or 2 drinks it affects me about as bad as the hangovers i used to get when i'd drink excessively.
I was taking CBD as if it were a supplement, because that's how most people seemed to be using it. And it was fine at first, but it definitely grew off me over time. I think I became more sensitive to it over time too, because I started off with larger doses and gradually would use less while still getting the same mild side effects which i came to dislike. which doesnt really jive with typical wisdom about how tolerance works. Perhaps its different for CBD than for THC? or perhaps it's just really specific to the individual (i've seen some research that says that certain genes can cause people to metabolize cannabinoids very differently, would be interested in seeing more of that research being done). I definitely experience tolerance for THC because it obviously takes more weed to get me to where I want to be now than it did when i started, but at the same time I know that I'm still pretty sensitive to it because I can have borderline psychedelic experiences in the right circumstances even with tolerance.
Things will be looking up in the job search if i can actually get the job i'm applying for haha. I found that the studio that produces the music education videos on this channel: https://www.youtube.com/@DrumeoOfficial/videos is located only 15 minutes away from me. That's right up my alley more than pretty much any job I've encountered so far, so I've been working on their (pretty detailed) application this week. Would be bordering on dream job status to get a full time gig at a place like that.
Trudeau has basically crowned himself king of virtue signaling, he'll do and say whatever supports his image of being the greatest liberal in the moment. So covid happens the whole world goes "oh wow Canada so progressive and good with how they're handing the benefit situation what a great country and leader". and then two years later they realized that they f*cked up by giving so much money out in the most haphazard way possible causing a bunch of problems. but the world has long since moved on from caring about covid benefits, so most people don't realize that it was so royally botched and still think of Trudeau as having been a great leader in the face of the pandemic.