Jesus prayed to the Father, always... and FWIW it seems "Your will be done" is the baseline theme no matter the circumstances...yep .even Jesus. He knew the whole culmination of life would be the cross.
Later Paul explains to live is Christ, to die is gain, correct? How does one rectify that?
When Jesus did signs and wonders, knowing that, what would you say is concerns were for, himself or those he touched, taught, and healed?
God has an endgame.. it's me, you, and others. We fight for life, for causes, for our lives every single day.Because life is worth it. So does God, and life with him is worth it l.
You've studied the Bible, so tell me this, is Jesus healing every person he could adding or taking away from the message of redemption from sin?

Your unasked question is this. Why were you scared from death? And your son involved in being the instrument in saving your life?

Does God care enough for life here to send your son AND his son to save you from two certain deaths?

Ask him... You're still asking. He's still answering ..you just have to believe what he's told you, not what this life wants to extract from you. But what he wants to save you from and for...himself.