I am not feeling terribly well right now and its coming out in my reactions.

I at least understand the "journey" part of your beliefs. I find my understanding of the divine, the song of the spheres to which the whol cosmos dances, the interwoven energy of all things always growing. But those ideas are big. God is BIG. As much as it would make things easier, we can't box in the Divine since we are seeing a very tiny part of the picture