this is not provable. I personally don't see God the way you do. And yes, that is my choice after many years of searching.

You seem to think that studying the Bible means believing all of it. I do not.

Nor do I think someone else's beliefs wrong. Rather different. You can't get into a place of discussing the differences because you're so stuck on "my god is better than your god, and I'm always right" mode. It's a shame really.